If somebody had to ask me what I have struggled with most in my life, I would sadly have to say that it would be my emotions. I don’t know about you, but has somebody ever labeled you as ‘too emotional’, or ‘over the top’, ‘drama queen?’
For me… these were labels that seemed to dictate my life. My emotional structure always seemed to be most targeted. I can understand why, as I am a pretty emotional person, I can sometimes tend to feel too deeply, and that can lead to being my biggest downfall. Anyways, enough about that sad story… As I have gone through different phases in my short life, I have come to realize that some phases tend to be harder than others, or maybe ‘more emotional’ than others. Filled with crying, pain, basically it can just be downright harder than the normal, and sadly that’s when your emotional structure or more like your emotional well - being seems to take the biggest hit. Make sense? I remember at the beginning of this year for about a month, my emotional structure was not even a structure… it was just like a failed mess, splattered on the floor. Let’s just say that it was not stable at all. I would break down at the most random moment, anything could trigger it… and I mean anything. ( Talk about being emotional right? ) However, during these rocky times that I seemed to be too frequently having, God was most certainly closer than ever before, all I had to do was seek Him. And BAM! He was right there. I know for a fact that us as women, our emotional status can be quite rocky, a lot of us deal with different mountains, be it depression, anxiety, loneliness, identity, self esteem issues…you name it, we’ve probably had to deal with it. Flip girl, we are strong bro! Anywho, in these really hard times, God is still faithful. He’s still our Dad. John 16:22 “So also you have sorrow now, but I will see you again, and your heart will rejoice, and no one will take your joy from you.” Flip! Talk about a verse right? What I love about this verse is that it shows that God is not a stranger to pain, He’s not deaf to it or pretends that it’s not there. He talks about it upfront, He recognizes it. Yet that’s not even the best part, after God recognizing that we will experience pain, He promises us that it will get better. He guarantees us that we will find joy again, and better yet, no one will ever be able to steal that joy. I don’t know about you, but I would take a cup of that goodness all day, everyday. God tells us to ask, and we will receive, that our joy may be full. He’s that good! We can rest in the promises that He will turn our mourning into dancing, our sorrow into joy. As I was reading these verses the other day, it struck me that without God, there would be no hope. There would be no joy, no dancing, there would be no morning after the night. We would just be stuck in a pit of hopelessness. A mess. Yet because He is the God that He is, He turns everything for good. - Pain into healing. - Sorrow into joy. - Night into morning. - Mourning into dancing. With God we have a steadfast guarantee that there is hope. He is the God of Hope. In the seeking of Him we can find joy, joy that is ever present, not based on feelings or circumstance. Joy that can only be found in Him.
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